I've been writing this blog in Traditional Chinese from the very beginning.
Today, I would like to write my preset feelings in English out of no reasons.
Sometimes I am powerless and feel upset without any obvious causes.
I have been doubting, this may happen by several coincidence in my life.
Some friends always share their sadness with me while I am pleased to hear their stories.
Sometimes I absorb those bad feelings and they accumulate until my negative emotion explodes.
Recently I am not satisfied with what I am.
Especially when I am looking at someone who is extremely successful at my age, I feel terrible that I am useless.
I understand, we have our own paths which are exclusively taylormade for us.
We encounter various of scenarios or milestones in the time of our life.
I don’t expect I am a successful person but I do feel emptiness in which I have neither physical nor mental properties.
I wonder why the celebrities can be that brilliant at my age.
I wonder which part of me should be improved.
I worry I may not be as superior as everyone expected.
I confuse how I can be a better me.
My friends may think that I have positive thinking.
In fact, I cry alone at night.
I am not good at expressing my emotions when I am with my friends.
That’s why I am writing this on this website.
Hopefully my mind will get released one day, one day not far.
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